4th grade.  That’s when I remember the first time being self conscience.  I remember standing looking at my new glasses and thinking how ugly I was.  Anyone else have that moment?  I think since then, I’ve fought with myself.  Me.  Not anyone else.  I’m 35, that’s a long time of going without loving yourself, but here we are.  I remember thinking that last line to myself about a month ago.  I was in therapy and my therapist (shout out to Courtney, because I wouldn’t be writing this without her) said to me, something like, “You have to find out with your “I AM” is.” To me, that was “I AM ENOUGH”.  I’d always said those words about everything, but it was never I AM ENOUGH.  It was always I AM NOT ENOUGH.  When she said those words for some reason it clicked. I totally got it at that moment and understood that I am enough.  It no longer mattered what anyone said or thought.  That belief system was going to be what directed me into my next journey.

I’ll go back a couple years to explain how I got to this place.  Which has basically been my whole life.  I went through the majority of my life never feeling like things were enough.  Doesn’t matter where the pressure came from, it was there.  Looks, grades, work, whatever it was, it just wasn’t enough for everyone.  But, do you see what I said there…everyone.  Why did I care? Why was that the bar that I was trying to get too?  The main person that I needed to make sure that I was taking care of was myself, and that’s something I never did.  For 35 years, I’ve been concerned with what everyone else was thinking, doing, caring, when really, it was me I should’ve been worrying about. 

Which leads me to my next subject, leaping.  6 years ago I took a huge leap and left a really toxic and bad relationship.  One day, I’ll tell my story about that, but for now, I’ll say this.  Without that leap, I wouldn’t be leaping into my business again.  I wouldn’t be pushing myself to be a better person, and I wouldn’t be able to write this blog post.  I’m sure you’ll be seeing a little bit of a shift in the blog, my posts, and my website some.  I want to be able to share my journey with life, which is what I want my photography to portray.  I think sometimes we only show the good parts of life, but without the bad, we wouldn’t have all those good parts.  So my goal for this year, is to show you all of it, and I hope you enjoy it.  I also hope that you find things that you love to do.  I hope you find the passion that makes you push yourself.  I hope you realize that you are enough, and I hope you find your “I AM” and say it daily.

The photo above is of me, looking in the mirror and realizing, I AM ENOUGH.  It doesn’t matter if people like me, or not, because I do.  And that’s what is really the most important.

Holly + Joey | Maternity

oh baby.  That’s the perfect way to start this post.  These are my friends, Holly & Joey.  They had the most perfect maternity session at Arrington Vineyard, and I’ve been obsessed with them, however, I think that level of obsession just went up a little more when they recently had their tiny little baby.  You see, I’ve known Joey for a while now.  He’s an awesome artist in Nashville, and is friends with one of my best friends that I’ve met here. Joey has always been one of the nicest people to me, and I always knew he would be a wonderful father, but…who knew that HE WOULD DELIVER HIS OWN BABY! But really y’all. And Holly, WHEW, GIRL! I can’t even imagine what she went thru.  She’s a rockstar!  I’ll leave on this note.  I’ll be posting more on my Instagram story today about them, and a little about where you can go and listen to an interview that he did about having to deliver that sweet baby.  I’m so thankful they asked me to shoot their maternity photos.  They are absolutely some of my favorite photos I’ve ever done, and I can’t wait to capture more for their little one.  Hurry up and get settled back in Nashville! :)

Baby Plan

Y’all asked, and it’s here! A new baby plan! 

The new plans are super easy, and a great way to get all the photos you will want for the first year.  I haven’t created a new baby plan in years, and felt like it was something that was needed with all the new little ones coming along.

Email me today for all the info and to get started :)

Happy Monday! -B

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